My Home WAS My Diet Sanctuary
I would blog about this on the autism site, but this is more about my resolve with food than Logan's new diet. Just for those who aren't familiar, Logan is on a GFCF (gluten free and casein free) diet. All of his food is now cooked naturally, on the stove, fresh, no microwaving, etc. We use lots of healthy oils, nuts, fruits, veggies, maple syrup, honey, and stuff I basically can't eat while in competition training.
Let me tell you, this stuff is STINKING DELICIOUS! I'm not a BLT kind of girl, but since I also have never cooked like Martha Stewart I am needing to sample things before giving it to him. While radically changing his diet to new foods and such I just can't risk turning him off the healthy stuff because I didn't flavor something right. Trust me, this is no cop-out. It's just the way it is and I'm trying my best to account for it by taking the TINIEST of tastes.
So, what does this have to do with diet? Holy heck the old habits want to come back with a vengence. Since I started my journey I have always kept tempting foods out and safe foods in. Boy that made things easier for me and it forced my family to eat a pretty decent diet. Well, now we have to usher in some of my weaknesses that Logan needs. Just to give you an idea of what foods have been SURROUNDING me the past week:
- GFCF Pizza made with fresh guacomole sauce and black beans
- GFCF sweet potato and blueberry pancakes topped with Ghee (a type of goat butter) and hot organic honey
- Organic bacon and eggs for breakfast with banana cinnamon GFCF butter toast
- Fruit, fruit, and more fruits baked, fresh, and any other way you can serve it
- Jellos of all types and flavors - HOMEMADE with REAL ORGANIC FRUIT JUICES
- Honey baked chicken with creamy cauliflower
All of these items serve specific nutritional needs for Logan while allowing him to enjoy his food. It's so hard to have it in my face when I'm eating the 50th tilapia salad of the week. That, combined with the fact that after 24 hours what he doesn't eat has to be tossed, makes me crazy because it's a lot of food waste. I'm working hard on this part because this organic stuff is EXPENSIVE.
Anyway, my sanctuary is gone. I now live like everyone else. I just have to bite the bullet and live by my plans. That's it. There is no fancy tip, no gimmick, no tricks outside of IT'S NOT ON MY FOOD PLAN, IT DOESN'T GET ME RESULTS, I DON'T EAT IT.
The past few days have been just an emotional roller coaster and I've wanted to eat like you wouldn't believe and the food is here. In fact, I work from home and the food is six feet away from me. Shoot ya'll, there is peanut butter, homemade, delicious GFCF power bars (think a healthy version of a rice krispie cake) in there right now I could put away in about ten minutes. But I don't. I don't because I know it solves nothing.
What you put into your body is so important to the length and quality of your life. I'm so glad I learned this lesson on my own time versus when I would have to change my behaviors along with my son's diet. I don't know if I could've done it, so I'm glad I wised up a long time ago and realized we need to eat to fuel our bodies and NOT our EMOTIONS. I guess it's sort of exciting because now I have a chance to experience a whole new era of my weightloss journey...the part where I let go of the control and exercise the strength of mind.